smash

Sun, 16 Oct 2005 22:44:31 GMT

i made a new live journal finally.

ibringthesmash... add me.

Sun, 09 Oct 2005 02:31:30 GMT

i have reliezed alot lately.

about myself, mainly about others.

sometimes i wish i had the only thing i really want. someone who genuinely means what they say and feel.

sometimes i sit around and think about what i really want from life, and i have finally figured it... to bad it's never going to happen for me.

sometimes having the best of friends doesn't fill that void.

having someone there for you, means all the time, not when its conveniant or you want to be around them.

i have finally figured out what you really want.

Tue, 27 Sep 2005 02:45:08 GMT

one person can only take so much until they brake.

im at that point.

sleep brings reliefe, and the hope of a new day.

one time i use to be content in my life, maybe soon i'll get there again.

Tue, 20 Sep 2005 03:23:09 GMT

mm. i miss my mom and sister alot right now.

Tue, 06 Sep 2005 03:39:19 GMT

one day i'll find what i want.

until then bring on the loneliness.

Tue, 06 Sep 2005 01:42:17 GMT

i've had enough... i cant take any more.

one day ill understand where im trying to go with this.

Thu, 01 Sep 2005 03:16:27 GMT

i'm turning into a stressed out old lady.

ha.

ps. i really miss my best friend.

Sun, 28 Aug 2005 22:39:57 GMT

i really hate complaining but lately i feel like i cant do anything right.

i feel like im losing the people most close to me.

gah.

Sun, 07 Aug 2005 21:16:09 GMT

im deleting my live journal.

Sun, 24 Jul 2005 05:46:07 GMT

im so tired of others envolving themselves in my relationship.

go away.

Wed, 20 Jul 2005 04:13:22 GMT

findind a job is retarded and stessful.

sometimes it feels like i try so hard to be a good friend and nothing comes of it, and that is also retarded.

the rain lately has been amazing.

Mon, 18 Jul 2005 01:24:04 GMT

im rather excitied that it's going to rain.....

i would really like to make a new journal but,
i cant figure out how to change my settings and
im to lazy to try and learn.

Wed, 13 Jul 2005 07:13:13 GMT

i would be rather happy if.... a certain two girls would talk to me.

extremely happy.

Sat, 25 Jun 2005 19:00:17 GMT

i feel like i have closure on things.

thank you to all my friends that have been so good to me and been there for me, i love you guys all so much.

Fri, 24 Jun 2005 17:57:40 GMT

so im doing better and with all this time to myself i've reliezed somethings....
sarah, thank you so much for being such a good friend to me for so long. you are honestly probably one of the best friends i've ever had.
i've learned alot about myself and others lately and its been really hard.
i guess sometimes you take things for granted and obviously shouldn't.
in all honesty peope amaze me, and after enough times i shouldn't be, but still am.

in the end people can be real shitty and im done with it.

Tue, 21 Jun 2005 13:55:13 GMT

i've been vomiting blood for the past 16 hours.
i hate hopstals and surgery.
i wish i wouldnt have said somethings to someone the other night....but on the other hand am glad.
i wish i could hang out and see the people i care about.
pain killers make me nausiated.
i really wanted to see courtney and kim the other night, but didn't.

well i guess with all this time to think i can really figure things out.

Tue, 07 Jun 2005 00:07:02 GMT

fuck my mom.

she's a cunt.

Mon, 16 May 2005 17:45:59 GMT

to whom it may concern...

if you're shaddy dont talk to me.

thank you.

Thu, 05 May 2005 07:21:11 GMT

fuck.

i hate being indeciesive.

i wish i knew what i wanted.

Mon, 02 May 2005 07:52:09 GMT

im tired of people.

i just want to move away.

Wed, 27 Apr 2005 06:10:07 GMT

i would just like to apologise to anyone that i've ever wronged. i'm tired of fighting for pointless reasons. things have happened to me that have made me relieze that friends and loved ones are precious. i'm not looking for sympathy in these entries im trying to express my thoughts. i dont want your sympathy. i know that i've done some immature things.. i've alot of growing up lately. but obviously i need to do alot more. i really would like to talk things out with someone. i just want them to hear me out. thats all i ask. i've also figured out that i have some really good friends.. thank you for everything lately. i really appreciate it.

fuck...

Mon, 25 Apr 2005 07:13:00 GMT

i fucking hate my life.. seriously i want to die.

Sat, 23 Apr 2005 09:14:54 GMT

my life is fucking retarded.
i hate everyone.
i hate drinking more than anything.
except maybe god.
i hate god.
religion is probably the biggest lie ever told.
he doesnt exsist. becuase if he did shitty things wouldnt happen. drunk drivers wouldnt hit a 16 month old and her mom and kill them.
if god really exsisted like everyone seems to think this shit wouldnt happen.
i hate drunk drivers.
i hate shitty people that hurt others.
i just hate everything.
life is pointless it seems.
i wish today would have never happend.
tonight an amazing little girl Mckayla and her mom died thanks to being hit by a drunk driver.
i lost my only close family i have left.
i wish i would have been in the car.
i wish i would have talked to them one more time and told them how much i loved them.
i wish alot of things.

Sat, 16 Apr 2005 21:32:10 GMT

things seem to be changing alot lately. for the good and the bad i guess.
i'm tired of the drama, take it some where else.
i want to beat up some stupid fashion kid.
im bored right now or else i wouldn't be updating my journal about nothing.
i want to sleep, but everytime that i start to my dad comes in a yells to get up.
fuck.
i'm glad that i have such good friends.
it's shitty that im losing one the best though.
i hate liars.
this is the most random entry ever.
i love the spill canvas.
i'm gonna see casey jones in june :]
im done with this entry.

fuckkkk

Thu, 07 Apr 2005 23:44:30 GMT

im not gonna lie it makes me real fucking mad when stupid pieces of shit say shit when they have no place to say it....