urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xsgcultbabex smash smash 2005-10-16T22:44:31Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xsgcultbabex:31026 2005-10-16T22:44:31Z 2005-10-16T22:44:31Z i made a new live journal finally.<br /><br /><br />ibringthesmash... add me. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xsgcultbabex:30797 2005-10-09T02:31:30Z 2005-10-09T02:31:30Z i have reliezed alot lately. <br /><br />about myself, mainly about others.<br /><br />sometimes i wish i had the only thing i really want. someone who genuinely means what they say and feel. <br /><br />sometimes i sit around and think about what i really want from life, and i have finally figured it... to bad it's never going to happen for me. <br /><br /><br />sometimes having the best of friends doesn't fill that void. <br /><br />having someone there for you, means all the time, not when its conveniant or you want to be around them. <br /><br />i have finally figured out what you really want. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xsgcultbabex:30585 2005-09-27T02:45:08Z 2005-09-27T02:45:08Z one person can only take so much until they brake.<br /><br />im at that point. <br /><br />sleep brings reliefe, and the hope of a new day.<br /><br /><br /><br />one time i use to be content in my life, maybe soon i'll get there again. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xsgcultbabex:30267 2005-09-20T03:23:09Z 2005-09-20T03:23:09Z mm. i miss my mom and sister alot right now. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xsgcultbabex:29962 2005-09-06T03:39:19Z 2005-09-06T03:39:19Z spill canvas one day i'll find what i want. <br /><br />until then bring on the loneliness. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xsgcultbabex:29896 2005-09-06T01:42:17Z 2005-09-06T01:42:17Z spill canvas i've had enough... i cant take any more. <br /><br /><br />one day ill understand where im trying to go with this. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xsgcultbabex:29613 2005-09-01T03:16:27Z 2005-09-01T03:16:27Z i'm turning into a stressed out old lady. <br /><br />ha. <br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />ps. i really miss my best friend. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xsgcultbabex:29314 2005-08-28T22:39:57Z 2005-08-28T22:39:57Z i really hate complaining but lately i feel like i cant do anything right. <br /><br /><br /><br /><br />i feel like im losing the people most close to me.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />gah. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xsgcultbabex:28691 2005-08-07T21:16:09Z 2005-08-07T21:16:09Z im deleting my live journal. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xsgcultbabex:28424 2005-07-24T05:46:07Z 2005-07-24T05:46:07Z all that remains im so tired of others envolving themselves in my relationship. <br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />go away. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xsgcultbabex:28405 2005-07-20T04:13:22Z 2005-07-20T04:13:22Z none. findind a job is retarded and stessful. <br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />sometimes it feels like i try so hard to be a good friend and nothing comes of it, and that is also retarded. <br /><br /><br /><br /><br />the rain lately has been amazing. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xsgcultbabex:27968 2005-07-18T01:24:04Z 2005-07-18T01:24:04Z martyr ad. im rather excitied that it's going to rain.....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />i would really like to make a new journal but,<br />i cant figure out how to change my settings and<br />im to lazy to try and learn. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xsgcultbabex:27824 2005-07-13T07:13:13Z 2005-07-13T07:13:13Z one eight seven i would be rather happy if.... a certain two girls would talk to me. <br /><br /><br /><br />extremely happy. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xsgcultbabex:27535 2005-06-25T19:00:17Z 2005-06-25T19:00:17Z none. i feel like i have closure on things.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />thank you to all my friends that have been so good to me and been there for me, i love you guys all so much. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xsgcultbabex:27284 2005-06-24T17:57:40Z 2005-06-24T17:57:40Z brittney spears. so im doing better and with all this time to myself i've reliezed somethings....<br />sarah, thank you so much for being such a good friend to me for so long. you are honestly probably one of the best friends i've ever had.<br />i've learned alot about myself and others lately and its been really hard.<br />i guess sometimes you take things for granted and obviously shouldn't. <br />in all honesty peope amaze me, and after enough times i shouldn't be, but still am.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />in the end people can be real shitty and im done with it. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xsgcultbabex:27044 2005-06-21T13:55:13Z 2005-06-21T13:55:13Z none. i've been vomiting blood for the past 16 hours. <br />i hate hopstals and surgery.<br />i wish i wouldnt have said somethings to someone the other night....but on the other hand am glad.<br />i wish i could hang out and see the people i care about.<br />pain killers make me nausiated.<br />i really wanted to see courtney and kim the other night, but didn't. <br /><br /><br /><br />well i guess with all this time to think i can really figure things out. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xsgcultbabex:26874 2005-06-07T00:07:02Z 2005-06-07T00:07:02Z none. fuck my mom. <br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />she's a cunt. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xsgcultbabex:26567 2005-05-16T17:45:59Z 2005-05-16T17:45:59Z it dies today. to whom it may concern...<br /><br /><br />if you're shaddy dont talk to me.<br /><br /><br />thank you. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xsgcultbabex:26182 2005-05-05T07:21:11Z 2005-05-05T07:21:11Z fuck.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />i hate being indeciesive.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />i wish i knew what i wanted. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xsgcultbabex:26091 2005-05-02T07:52:09Z 2005-05-02T07:52:09Z none. im tired of people. <br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />i just want to move away. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xsgcultbabex:25726 2005-04-27T06:10:07Z 2005-04-27T06:10:07Z apple seed cast i would just like to apologise to anyone that i've ever wronged. i'm tired of fighting for pointless reasons. things have happened to me that have made me relieze that friends and loved ones are precious. i'm not looking for sympathy in these entries im trying to express my thoughts. i dont want your sympathy. i know that i've done some immature things.. i've alot of growing up lately. but obviously i need to do alot more. i really would like to talk things out with someone. i just want them to hear me out. thats all i ask. i've also figured out that i have some really good friends.. thank you for everything lately. i really appreciate it. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xsgcultbabex:25370 2005-04-25T07:13:00Z 2005-04-25T07:13:00Z none. i fucking hate my life.. seriously i want to die. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xsgcultbabex:25157 2005-04-23T09:14:54Z 2005-04-23T09:14:54Z konstantine. my life is fucking retarded. <br />i hate everyone. <br />i hate drinking more than anything. <br />except maybe god. <br />i hate god. <br />religion is probably the biggest lie ever told.<br />he doesnt exsist. becuase if he did shitty things wouldnt happen. drunk drivers wouldnt hit a 16 month old and her mom and kill them. <br />if god really exsisted like everyone seems to think this shit wouldnt happen. <br />i hate drunk drivers. <br />i hate shitty people that hurt others. <br />i just hate everything. <br />life is pointless it seems.<br />i wish today would have never happend. <br />tonight an amazing little girl Mckayla and her mom died thanks to being hit by a drunk driver. <br />i lost my only close family i have left.<br />i wish i would have been in the car. <br />i wish i would have talked to them one more time and told them how much i loved them.<br />i wish alot of things. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xsgcultbabex:24478 2005-04-16T21:32:10Z 2005-04-16T21:32:10Z everlong. things seem to be changing alot lately. for the good and the bad i guess. <br />i'm tired of the drama, take it some where else. <br />i want to beat up some stupid fashion kid. <br />im bored right now or else i wouldn't be updating my journal about nothing.<br />i want to sleep, but everytime that i start to my dad comes in a yells to get up. <br />fuck.<br />i'm glad that i have such good friends.<br />it's shitty that im losing one the best though.<br />i hate liars.<br />this is the most random entry ever.<br />i love the spill canvas. <br />i'm gonna see casey jones in june :]<br />im done with this entry. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xsgcultbabex:24090 2005-04-07T23:44:30Z 2005-04-07T23:44:30Z kim's sweet little vioce im not gonna lie it makes me real fucking mad when stupid pieces of shit say shit when they have no place to say it....